Meaningless words…

Yesterday somebody said to me “just ignore me, those are just meaningless words.” Of course I could not ignore it, because it seems to me that no words are meaningless even if we want them to be. So, although that person probably meant what they said, her words almost had the opposite meaning to me. And so, as usual, that got me thinking. I often think I do too much thinking and not enough doing, but that’s another story…or is it?
As I have said before words seem to often define us as we attempt to define our world with them. The problem comes when we think we know what others mean and feel. The reality is that we can only approximate what we think they mean or feel. You can never truly be inside someone else’s mind, well at least not until they invent a brain swapping machine…is any of this real or just hyperreality? Are we doomed to be alone, encased in our prison of flesh, always misunderstood, or is true connection possible?
For me this creates a further problem; because I am aware of this tricky problem it makes me extra cautious to avoid misunderstandings. Especially in new relationships; with new friends or people I find attractive. Like a foolish teen I find myself endlessly apologising for the slightest thing for fear of misunderstanding. And to add to that I know that confidence is often more attractive than reticence. Everyone knows that girls love a bad boy right?
Today I felt I connected with someone who is so delightful it almost shocked me…it was wonderful. But impossible too…
Maybe I should just stop thinking about it and do what I feel is best. Just dive into life’s slippery splashing stream and enjoy the cool water. Like right now. I should be playing guitar and singing, not writing this…and that is what I will do…ditch the angst!
Is it a problem to read to much into things? Does the wise owl think or do? What do you think?

© 2011 Simon Poore

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Footprints in the snow…

It’s odd that I should be writing about snow on such a sunny day, but maybe it won’t be long before England once again is carpeted in the wonderful stuff; here’s hoping.
I have been thinking about thinking and memory. Specifically whether we can ‘think’ without language. Yes. Language; the all pervasive tool that envelops us and and defines us. We use it to attempt to make sense of the world and control and define everything. But, like trying to grasp Plato’s shadows, we always seem to fail.
We live in an age of effervescent text and gaudy image, instantly and endlessly communicating to each other through ever more complex and competing technologies; it’s hard to think that we will be heard, let alone understood. The capacity for misunderstandings seem endless to me.
I am hooked on these technologies I admit, twittering away like a lone sparrow sitting on a telegraph wire in the wind. Those engaged in these activities continually make and break brief (and sometimes not so brief) relationships with strangers. A thing inconceivable ten or fifteen years ago. Who would have thought that such things as Twitter or ‘Second Life’ would exist? Now people fall in love and marry people they meet first online. From other continents. The global traffic of information is astonishing and can even lead to revolutions. The Arab spring, another amazingly inconceivable thing! A Facebook revolution…
A hundred or a hundred and fifty years ago, most only knew of their town or village. News from other continents was slow or non existent. People lived and married and worked with people they knew and did mostly what they were expected to do. Were they more content? Now we are presented with such plethora and choice. The problem is what do we choose?
Maybe all of this new world is fakery, like Baudrillard’s ‘simulacra’; an endless watery stream of consciousness pretending to be reality. The written words are released from our keyboards to be stored in some faceless mainframe we will never see. But can it be forever?
Perhaps in twenty years our children will laugh at our obsessions; “You actually used an IPad?” – who can conceive what wonders they will obsess about?
You must wonder where I am going with all of this. Well like most of my writing I don’t know until I get there, just like life. But at the end of the day I know that memories fade and fall, to be replaced by new ones. The language we use continues to fail us, and yet we still try to communicate and connect, over and over.
In the end does it matter?
Like footprints in the snow, our writing, communications, thoughts, memories and feelings will fade. But wasn’t it glorious to tread there even for a fleeting moment? What do you think?

© 2011 Simon Poore

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